The Evolution of Me: November 2009

Gold Face

Labels: Rants n Raves, school | at Monday, November 23, 2009

Today was one of those days.

Got back a group project. Did terrible. This is the 2nd one in a row for the same class with the same group of bongwholes. They dont listen. I basically hand fed these fools the paper and somehow between me sendin out the paper and the start of class that they changed the entire format of the paper. I just dont understand. I walked outta class cuz I was bout to FLIP on them.

Then I go to my art class and my finishing my sculpture and accidentally SPRAY PAINTED MY FACE GOLD!!!!

What a way to start off the bday week....

Extra Extra Read All About It

Labels: Mii So Called Love Life | at Sunday, November 22, 2009

I cant believe Im sayin this... but Im actually feelin him. I chilled with him for a bit tonite and it was great. Nothin and no one but me and him.

and.... we kissed...

Now I cant get this feeling to go away. Its like butterflies or something. I havent felt this way in a long time. I wish it would go away. Just when I think it has faded, it pops back up again. SMH.

IDK if I will be able to go to sleep tonite but if I dont I hope I dream about him.

Ugh. This moment of sheer gayness was brought to u in part by:

Morgo The Love Goddesss

Tengo Hambre

Labels: Rants n Raves | at Friday, November 20, 2009

Have u ever been so hungry that you resort to eating the one thing that you said u wouldnt eat???

Well thats what happened to me today. I was soo hungry and didnt feel like leaving my job so I had to get MCDONALDS.

Sigh.

I am ashamed, but in this current state of emergency it doesn taste half bad.

I am prolly gonna regret this later this eve. My tummy is extremely sensitive.

Forgive me.

Morgo the Glutton

Persuasive Thinking

Labels: Mii So Called Love Life, randomness | at Friday, November 20, 2009

My heart and mind and at odds again.

They rarely ever agree.

Last time, I chose my heart. Didnt turn out all that well.

So maybe this time I will follow my mind...

If I keep thinking it, maybe I can convince my heart to feel it?

lol. Naw, that joint has a mind of its own.

Besos!

Tamborines

Labels: randomness, Rants n Raves | at Tuesday, November 17, 2009

My Cuzzo said the best way to live life is with NO EMOTION.

maybe she is right.

But is it possible {for me}?

Until then I listen to the words of the bestie "it hurts becuz it always hurts... even when u know its over..."

MorgoLessEmotion

White Walls

Labels: I Think Therefore I Am... Morgo, randomness, Rants n Raves | at Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Ive tried to go to sleep twice but Im having bad dreams.

Everytime I close my eyes, I see a person I hold and or once held near and dear to me and then I replay the moment when they tell me that there is someone else.

Its keepin me awake.

I hate having alot of my mind. I really cant sleep.

I need a sleep aide and I time machine.

Morgo the Insomniac

Is It True?

| at Monday, November 16, 2009

Everyday he professes his undying love for me and everyday I try to act like it doesnt matter. But for some reason today I feel a lil sumthin when he says "I Love U".

Am I gettin soft in my old age?

Stolen Sentiments

Labels: I Think Therefore I Am... Morgo, randomness, Rants n Raves | at Monday, November 16, 2009

Disclaimer: I stole these from my bestie and twisted them to fit my own ramblings. He is wise.. (oh Ps. i think he stole these from someone else.. lol..)

{If I could think of the words to describe HIM.. these would be it}

~Sometimes I ask myself "why do I keep doing this?" and then I realize that love is patient, love is kind, it needs no thank you or acknowledgement, love is behind the scene but always felt, love keeps loving with no guarantee of loving back...love is Love.

{If I could think of words to describe me, these would be it}

Love is not a emotion I believe in any more because the fact of the matter is there's a lock on every door, so I look for a simple version that I narrow down to "Like" you know the Innocent version like the yes, no, maybe type. I can see the lasting trend in every female alike where love has played a damaging role in the relationship life. I've seen it cause more grief and strife. So I step back from the trending use of love and dumb it down to "Like" cause love and "Like" are not alike but the feelings are just as nice. My emotional state seems not attached but just enough to see that without the pressure of that word called love I can just be free. Free to roam and talk and free to be myself cause inside I really dont care, here today and gone tomorrow with "Like" I know my heart wont tear. So Im just going as far as "Like" no pressure that I'll catch feelings even if Im with him every night cause at the end of the day I'll be ok and my cold steel heart will be alright.

This is me and him... him and me.. this is us.. I wonder if there is a happy medium?

I Done Did That Again

Labels: randomness, school | at Monday, November 16, 2009

Soo a few weeks ago I had a major meltdown regarding one of my sculptures. I actually wrote a hysterical email to my professor the nite before it was due tellin him that I quit and that I didnt care what grade I got on it.

He sat me down and gave me this long spill about how Im not a quitter and how I am stubborn and I need to just relax and play. He went on a 2 week trip to Israel and told me to have it for him when he got back.

He got back today and I turned it in. I thought since it was 2 weeks later I wouldnt have to do a formal critique but of course my prof wouldnt have that... lol.

EVERYBODY LOVED IT!!!!

I believe the exact words used were "Brilliant" and "Gorgeous".

It is not being displayed in the student exhibition hall. YAY!

I really need to stop stressin myself out so much. I do it everytime. And when I just take a breather and allow myself to get lose everything turns out fine. Im too controlling. I really need to let go.

Tata for now

Morgo the Artist!

Unavailable

Labels: I Think Therefore I Am... Morgo, Mii So Called Love Life, randomness | at Monday, November 16, 2009

A convo with the mother yesterday yeilded an astonishing revelation....

I have physically separated myself from my past but I am still there emotionally.

I need to let go.

How do u let go?

{He} says he loves me. I kind of believe him. I kno I cant really love {him} back until I let go of my past.

Until further notice...

Morgo the Soloist

Square Bizz

Labels: Daily Blasphemy, randomness | at Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Last week, I decided to get a hair cut. So I go to the dominicans and get them to blow me out and cut me down. For the past few months, I have been sporting my curly fro, in an effort to save money by not going to get my hair done and doing my own flexis.

Anyway, I walk into class and this guy who sits in front of me starts a convo:

Guy: Did u get your hair done or something?

Me: Yea. Why?

Guy: Cuz it looks good. You look good.

Me: As opposed to every other day you've seen me when Ive come in lookin a mess??? (ok i can admit, i do tend to care less on days when i have art class.. lol)

Guy: No, u looked good before, now you just look even better. Like before you were a B, now you're like an A or A-

What can you say to that logic?

Speechless

Labels: Daily Blasphemy, randomness, Rico | at Sunday, November 08, 2009

I am sooo beyond words rite now. IDK what to do, but I have to share this info.

Sooo last yr, my stalker was gone. I thought it was because I had finally been mean enuff to him that he decided to take his business elsewhere. However turns out he was locked up. I never asked the who what when where why.

Yesterday, he brought it up. About how he was scared to tell me and how he wanted to write me. Then he sent me to this website with his case info on it. Its like a database where they keep all info for criminals. So after lookin up his stuff i decided that I would look up the ex's case info..

(Bad I kno. But u kno curiosity killed the cat).

So i put in his name and the case against him comes up. Under charges it says "RAPE."

I am soo speechless. I can barely get together a sentence to type this.

More to come later..

The Evolution of Me