The Evolution of Me

I am soo tired of the IT guy at my job making remarks abt my hair.

I love my natural hair. While I may not be able to style it in cutesy styles and it has its off days, its MY hair. The hair GOD has given me. The hair that has grown out of me.

Sorry that I dont pur chemicals in my hair so u can feel better abt the way I look.

One of the most difficult things about life in general, is being comfortable in your skin and confident with yourself. Even on days when I dont feel the cutest, I am comfortable being me.

And if you dont like how I look, dress, talk, where my hair.. then stay away from me. Dont come into my cube talking smack....

I dont even know why he is talking... He just stapled the bottom of his pants together -_- If we discussing something thats not cute.. lets discuss THAT!

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So as a Federal Government employee, I am offered certain benefits such as transit subsidy in order to get back and forth to work. I hate the Metro. I hate the over crowdedness, I hate the smells, I hate the delays etc. But with gas rising, I need to be smart abt how I wanna use my precious gas. I decided to give Metro a try. My first issue with metro is the people. So many people, not enough space. Im gonna pay to stand up?? or to be squished by the "girthy" chick who thinks she can squeeze in the seat next to me because I dont take up that much room. Like literally I have been sat on. SMH. Then there are soo many germs. I swear its Metro should come out with a soundtrack called GERM. The coughs, sneezes, sniffles etc. Enough to drive a hypochondriac (aka me) insane. I try to drown out the noises with my ipod. Since my office moved to First St. I now have to ride the dreaded Red Line. Which means atleast a 45min ride because I have to transfer and all that good stuff. The Red line is notorious for its delays, track work etc. Which could increase my ride time 15-30 min. All in all, metro hasnt been that bad. But thats because I take the necessary precautions to ensure 1. that i have a seat, 2. that the train is air conditioned and 3. that no one talks to me. As I sit at my desk this morning, I hear that someone has been hit by a train on the Red Line in Bethesda. My first thought was "how rude of that person to try to commit suicide during rush hr" Does that make me selfish? A lady is trapped under a train and Im worried abt how that will effect my ride home 7 hrs from now. Hopefully the delays will be handled by the time I get off but still, what abt all the ppl who are made late, because some lady decided she wanted to end it all! What happened to doing those things in private? If it was truly an accident, I hope the lady is ok. But if she was just being a jerk, I have no sympathy for her. I just know that my train better be on time this afternoon.

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Depsite what ppl told me about only exercising every other day. I decided to go the gym again last night. Took Tack with me. The best mistake I couldve made. He made me get on the elliptical.. I burned more calories in 20min on the elliptical than i did on the treadmill and the bike. The fool put the machine of the Hills workout... My legs were screaming at me only 4 mintues in. But i did the entire program. I just closed my eyes and tried to zone out into my music. Im not a sweater, but I definitely felt the glisten on my skin. Next we went to the ab machines. This fool had me doing crunches with 30lbs attached. I couldnt even sit up. lol. So he reduced it to 10. I did my little reps and was pooped. SMH... All in all I think I'm doing great. I would love to go tonight but my abs and glutes hurt... Maybe I should take this one day of rest... But tomorrow I will back at it.

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Summer is right around the corner.

I'm an exhibitionist. So I would like to be able to wear minimal clothes and NOT look like a whale. Since I graduated college, I don't get my daily walks. I sit on my butt all day at work and snack... SMH Needless to say, I have put on a few. My hips have spread and my thighs have thickened. The only plus side to this is my butt is getting rotund (Did I mention the guy at the carryout who requested permission to smack it?!?!?!)

I digress, I am still smaller than most. I can still put on my clothes. But I don't like the way they fit and I don't like the number I see when I get on the scale.

My initial reaction was to stop eating... I found that hard to do. Then I started researching crash diets... but because I don't eat a wide range of foods that was nearly impossible. I do eat some veggies but not most. And fruit makes me nauseous so I would have to follow up with an abundance of ginger ale... I tried to eat yogurt one day and literally GAGGED!!! I couldn't swallow it. SMH... I tried this on two different occasions with two different flavors and brands and couldn't get it down. I also tried to make myself eat a salad... but considering the fact that I don't like lettuce, tomatoes, onion, corn, or salad dressing... i have no clue how I will do that either..

Next was diet pills... I found one that seems to be the best and safest. It’s called Adapexin - P. It’s not cheap but it has a money back guarantee. They seem to have positive reviews... but you just never know. Plus since I'm on birth control, I don't want to take anything that may make that ineffective....

So I decided I would try to do this the healthy way and exercise. I started looking for a gym. My besti Tack goes to Planet Fitness. So on Monday, I decided I would check things out. They have 3 locations relatively close to where I live. I wanted to check each one out and see what they have to offer. Based off their locations I knew one would be full of hood rats, one would be full of old pervs and the last full of ppl I went to high school with..... How will I ever choose??? I decided to call and see how much a day pass was. My thought was that I could go to each facility, work out then make a final decision. Well to my surprise a day pass is $20!!!! WTF?? $20 for an hr or two when a full month’s membership is $10... If that's not blasphemy, IDK what is.

Instead, Brownie and I went and took tours of 2 facilities (old perv town and small world high school). We decided small world high school was more spacious... Strangely enough there was no one from my high school there. Guess they are all satisfied being fat cows. And in a more plot twister, the gym offers Pizza Mondays for members... SWHS had Papa Johns... OPT had Domino's (yuck). Of course we picked the place with Papa Johns.

Now let’s pause for a second to dissect the genius that is Planet Fitness... 1. They charge astronomical prices for day passes, which prompts one to eagerly sign up for the membership deal. 2. They have pizza mondays... they lure you in, and keep you fat. Thus keeping membership numbers high... You have to respect the hustle.

Yesterday, Brownie and I decided to take advantage of our new memberships. I worked out for a little over an hr. I did 2 miles on the treadmill and 7 miles on the bike. I wanted to use the machines that target hips, thighs and abs but my legs felt like jelly. Even though I think I did alright for my first time out, I only burn 250 calories... I need to do more. I have to do more. More stamina, more distance, more speed, more calories... I want to see my results... Within the next 2 - 3 months.... More muscle, less flub and fat.

Prolly go tonight again... It’s not a game. I will get my body looking like Ping Pow Pacquiao.... if it’s the last thing I do.

If u guys have routines that get results, lemme know...

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