The Evolution of Me: February 2010

Paper Chaser

Labels: I Think Therefore I Am... Morgo, randomness | at Wednesday, February 24, 2010

I get bored in class... so i write down lil thoughts:

Intelligence has irrelevance when currency takes precedence.

Experience has taught me to be concerned only with dollars and cents.

But since money cant buy happiness It makes no sense to chase it.

Its an ugly truth about life but few are man enough to face it

Chronic Pain

Labels: I Think Therefore I Am... Morgo, Rants n Raves, sickness | at Monday, February 22, 2010

of the pelvic region.. more specifically near the coxal bone

Possible diagnosis: ovarian cancer, ovarian cysts, appendicitis..

Atleast thats what I told the nurse when I went to the Dr. last week. And this lady gonna reply to me: Why u using big words?

Umm I kno what they mean but the better question here is do u....

Anywho, after my REAL doc came in, we did a lil chit chat. (I love that lady, been with her for 15 yrs and wouldnt trade her for any doctor.) After I told her my symptoms, she also thought the problem was ovary related.Then she told me to drop my draws and lets do a pelvic exam.

Annnd.. the ovaries are fine and my vag is as clean as a whistle. lol (her words not mine)

She thinks the pain is associated with me ovulating. So we solve the problem by eliminated ovulation via birthcontrol pills. Simple right? NO. Idk if im gonna fill the prescription. I heard them things make u fat. I have enuff body image issues without purposely taking sumthin thats gonna add extra poundage... I tried to do research on it but honestly it varies from person to person.

To take the pill or not take the pill.. to gain weight or not gain weight.. that is the question?

Writing Mojo

Labels: I Think Therefore I Am... Morgo | at Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Today I got the urge to write, havent felt it in a while.

So here is a lil taste.

My thoughts are in a drought but my emotions overflow as tears of anguish fall into a river moving slow lacking a strong current in need of sum direction scared of leaving this world without even making an impression.

Living in a world of now and instant gratification. They say its all about the guap but first you need an education. Always done it by the book, dotted every I and crossed each T but no one tells u what happens after you get to Z.

It’d be easier if two roads diverged, simply take the one less traveled. Some many options over the horizon, my once tight knit plan unravels right before my eyes cant believe this is happening to me, tryna find a way to know what is truly meant to be.

In search of something more but not willing to settle for less, fear of the unknown is the only thing stopping my success.

soo what ya think? should i permanently retire my pen? i must admit it feels good to get sumthin out tho..

back at it like i aint neva left

| at Monday, February 15, 2010

skool back in session after a week out cuz of snow
wonder if this pushes back graduation?

InSomNiAC

Labels: I Think Therefore I Am... Morgo, randomness | at Saturday, February 13, 2010

IDK why but I always wake up around 3am...

Everyone thinks i have alot on my mind which i do but thats a different blog all together..

tonite i have embraced my condition...

woke up at 3, watched a lil tv, at 3:30 i decided to do my hair. lol

At 4:15 my momma sent me a text from her room. (she has this theory that her sleeping pattern is tied to mine) Then at 5 we grow tired of texting ans she calls.

We talk for about 45 min . We watched infomercials together and she ordered sum type of exercise thing that supposed to shape Booty... WaTCH out summer time, cuz in 5-7 days I will be on my way to a BANGIN body. lol

Watchin tv and a cool video came on.. i rarely ever watch videos anymore and actually the video itself wasnt cool, but the lyrics spoke to me.. and of course I wanna share a snippet of them.. so read on:

According to u,

im stupid

im useless

i cant do anything right.

according to u

im difficult

hard to please

forever changing my mind.

im a mess in a dress

cant show up on time

even if it would save my life

according to u, according to u

But according to him

im beautiful

incredible

he cant get me out of his head

according to him

im funny

irresistible

everything he ever wanted

everything is opposite

i dont feel like stopping it

so baby tell me what i got to lose

he's into me for everything im not

If u liked those words and want to download a swanky song its called According to You (clever rite) by a girl named Orianthi. I downloaded a few of her other songs to check out her swag and see if im feelin her all around or if she is a one hit wonder.

I still wired but I should prolly force myself to lie down. In about 4 hrs the kids will be awake make all type of noise. I think thats why I wake up at this time, its so quiet at this hr, there is a stillness and a peace in the house that calms me.

Anywho... bout to pop me a soda and she what else is on tv...

PS. Goodmorning!

First Comes Love?

Labels: Cleotis, Mii So Called Love Life, X | at Thursday, February 11, 2010

Welp.. X is gone... Cant say im sad or happy about it. I knew i while back that I couldnt see myself with him LONG term. I dont think I can see myself with anyone long term actually. Too much of a solo act.

But isnt it crazy the EVERY and I do mean EVERY time things fall apart with sum guy, Cleotis is always there in the raptures. And he doesnt even have a clue what goin on but its like he always knows the right time to hit me up. Maybe I should stop fightin it and try things with him. He is afterall one of the few people who can stand me in spite of all my hangups other than my mother...

I just dont know if its the right thing to do. He seems so sure that we are destined to be together and I admired his determination but I feel like I would be just settling for someone who liked me just because I knew they liked me and not because I knew in the pit of my sole that he is the one for me.

Does love always have to come first? In the olden days, ppl had arranged marriages and grew to love and respect each other. I feel like my feelings have often lead me down the wrong roads so maybe makin a decision wiht my over analytical brain will yield better results. Ehhh... prolly not.

Blizzard 2010

Labels: Daily Blasphemy, Mi Familia | at Wednesday, February 10, 2010

This winter sure has been a white one. I cant remember in all my years that everytime I turn around it another snow storm brewing. Mother Nature I have stuff to do.

I have been home, since Thursday. My mother has barracaded my car in the driveway and forbodden me to leave to house to go back to school. WTH. She is soo overprotective.

Monday we decided we were gonna walk to the store just to get out the house. Since I live in West Bumba, the closet stores arent close at all. roughly 1.5 hrs, 4 hills and countless jokes later we made it to the store. I ended up having to pull my mom up the last two hills. She held on to the back of my coat and I trudged forward like one of those eskimo dogs.

We get in the store and its a madhouse. My mother is packin all this stuff into the cart and I have to keep reminding her that we walked and everything she puts in the cart we will have to carry all the way back. So in order to keep the hohos and canned items she insisted on, she put back papertowels and fruit. Im always the practical one. It brought back memories of grocery shoppin with her when I was a child (small enough to sit in the child seat of the car). We were in the cereal aisle trying to decide on a cereal to buy. She wanted Fruity Pebbles, I wanted Frosted Mini Wheats. So there we were yellin back and forth me pro wheat and her pro pebbles and people were looking at us like we are crazy. Which Im sure we were/are.

Anywho, we decide to walk a different route home cuz I refuse to carry all the food she stuffed in the bags and her up the hills back to the house. We end up on a side street thats pretty much deserted. The houses are few and far between. All I can think to myself is, well this screams bad horror movie. I was waiting for sum crazed maniac to come out the streets. Thankfully we made it back to our side of the community with no problem. As we were walking down our streets, some ppl pulled over and asked if we needed a ride. We declined. As they drove off my mom says "They look like swingers!" IDK what im gonna do with that woman.

The one "good" thing about this snow storm is that Im spendin lots of qt with mother dear. She is a hoot. She does still get on my nerves but a hoot none the less.

february

| at Monday, February 01, 2010

happy new month
happy black history month
happy groundhogsday
happy bday mommy
happy bday sissy
happy valentines day
happy presidents day
happy bday tac

alot of happiness throughout the month... so why do i feel so ugh rite now???

The Evolution of Me

Paper Chaser

Chronic Pain

Writing Mojo

back at it like i aint neva left

InSomNiAC

First Comes Love?

Blizzard 2010

february

Quotes

Blog Archive

Labels

Entertainment