The Evolution of Me

My Pet Peeve List (random order)

• Ppl drivin slow in the left lane. Move out the way.
• Ppl layin on the floor with nothing underneath them. You walk on the floor with your dirty shoes that have been all outside steppin in God knows what. Then you wanna lay your head down on it???
• Ppl leavin the cap off the soda bottle loose, makin the soda flat. Im not drinkin that crap
• Having to wait for someone. I told you what time I would be here, so why arent you ready???
• When ppl drive "stupidily" when a police car is around. They aint thinkin about u. Half the time they the main ones speeding.
• NOT washing your hands after using the bathroom "I saw you, you nasty heifer!"
• People who just walk out in front of you while driving in a parking lot and think they have all day to cross the street...excuse me but you don't have rubber bumpers and I will plough you down!
• Chicks that mug on you when they look like warmed over dog doo....
• Chicks who have 3 strands of permed hair on thier heads and got the nerve to tell me I should perm my hair cause it would be so long and pretty...kinda like yours huh?
• When people make that HAWK sound and then spit.
• When people with bad breath, want to talk directly close to me(face to face) and then I gotta pretend that it isn't killing yome(when it really is) or try to come up with a subtle way to offer them a piece of gum all the while keepin my composure. (Even though my eyes are waterying and I feel like my nose hairs are being burned)
• When there is a rack of empty spaces and someone comes and parks or sits right next to me. ALL these spaces and gotta be right here?!?
• Today I saw a woman carrying a baby who looked like he could carry her. Another woman ask her how old the child was and she said 8. I do not have any children but I think that there is a time to just stop carrying them.
• Mothers who will be dressed to a T in designer clothes, nails done, hair done and makeup flawless, but have their kids looking raggedy in clothes that are cheap and dont fit with their hair not combed.
• When I'm in line at a store and the customer in front of me is taking 20 years to pull money out her purse.
• When people try to argue me down about something I know I'm right about.
• When people complain about their weight and not fitting into their clothes and are steadily poking food down their throats.
• Women who blame their last pregnancy (20 yrs ago) on why the are fat today.
• People that stare... WTF Lose something over here???
• People that can't deal w someone else getting a compliment. STOP HATIN!

Examples: Her shoes are nice....those cheap a** shoes? She's pretty... If she takes some of that makeup off maybe. I love my man...he'll be cheating on you soon. Isn't it nice what happened for Jane...I guess

• Ppl who lie about gifts they have "oh I've got your birthday/christmas gift at home" I know your lying just admit you haven't got me anything. Lying makes me madder than your forgetting my bday
• Ppl who call my house looking for someone when I say "sorry you got the wrong number" they ask if i'm sure.
• Babies with 6 strands of hair all scraped up ontop of their head with a whole load of clips, beads and barettes all in it.
• When I tell someone something and days later they'll repeat back to me as if they thought of it all by themselves.
• When ppl drive and stop in the middle of the road to talk to somebody in another car, or to talk to somebody walking down the street
• When ppl have messed up tracks...like it's tangled and dry...you cant even take care of fake hair?!
• Seeing ppl's 1 inch real hair on top of jet black silky smooth straight tracks like they really thought it was going to blend in. The textures dont even match!
• When people talk so loud and then look at me like are you listening to my conversation?? CLEARLY u want me to hear it!!!
• Guys tryna to holla at girls walken down the street when they are on the passenger side. It's not yo car, why are you trying to spit game from it?
• Did I mention people who drive slow in the left lane????
• Men with crusty elbows, messy moustaches, and long nose hairs. GROSS (makes my stomach turn and nose wrinkle)
• Wire Hangers!!! (They just bother me)

LOL... After reviewing this list I think I may be a bit of a witch... But oh well.

What are your pet peeves???

• 
• 
• 
• 
• 

Ok. For the most part I have been unbiased in all discussions regarding the upcoming presidential election, campaign smears, etc. Partly because I am not fully aware of the issues, mostly because I've just been busy. But the recent foolishness going around has forced me to speak. (ok.. im just bored at work and need to rap LOL)

But anywho, throughout the entire presidential campaigning process I have heard of the rumors, the defamation, the 'dirty politics' floating around (mostly from the McCain party). But this one came across my desk today and I have to address it.

It seems as though Madonna has raised a bit of controversy recently. As she kicked off her international "Sticky and Sweet" tour Saturday night, she took a none-too subtle swipe at the Republican candidate for U.S. president.

She started the drama with a couple of political montages during her song "Get Stupid." The video showed images of destruction, global warming, Adolf Hitler and John McCain, then went on to include John Lennon, Al Gore, Gandhi and Barack Obama.

McCain's people responded with this:
“The comparisons are outrageous, unacceptable and crudely divisive all at the same time. It clearly shows that when it comes to supporting Barack Obama, his fellow worldwide celebrities refuse to consider any smear or attack off-limits."


EXCUSE THE HELL OUTTA ME. If that aint the pot callin the kettle black then idk what is.


So these images should be off limits but talking about a man's young children is fair game? This cant possibly be from the same group of individuals who have done nothing but play childish antics throughout the entire race. The same individuals who recently release a new commercial attacking Obama children??? YES THEM. I understand that with politics there has to be a bit of mudslinging but I mean his children though?? Both of whom are under the age of ten I might add.


"We had to do something to give the American people some straight talk on those two brats," Sen. McCain said. Just who do you think you are?? What gives you the right to target children??? McCain=McMeanie!!!!!


Why would I want a old man with the mentality of a child to represent me in the highest level of office? Its childish and not a quality I admire nor can I / will I respect it. You can say he didnt do it and that those working for him composed it but nothing goes out without his consent of knowledge so I still hold him liable.


I think its kinda sad that we live off of humiliating and pushing down one another to elevate ourselves. I understand that McCain is playin the game the way he feels it needs to be played and all that but leave the man's family alone. Or at least those who cant really understand why a man old enough to be their grandfather is picking on them.


Personally, I am getting a little tired of this whole thing. This is my first time being eligible to vote and I cant even get exicted about it because it is a 3ring circus. Is this what all politics are??? I mean no really have all our past campaigns contained so much BULL that the real issues are being overlooked? I put in Obama or McCain into google and instead of getting their positions on the issues, I see blogs about the latest campaign smear. When is enough going to be enough?

If you are still unsure of who to vote for try www.votechooser.com for some help. Its basics but effective.

BTW, did u get a look a Madonna legs??? OMG!!

• 
• 
• 
• 
• 

I dont mean glutteous maximous goregrous rock hard watch me walk away butt. I mean the excuses, the bull, the reason why he failed or didnt come through BUT.

I was gonna call you but.....
I wanted to come see you but.....
I miss you but......
I love you but....

BUT, BUT, BUT.. give me a break!

Why is it so hard for people to do as they say? Men in particular.... I mean, for the most part, I do as I say. I dont talk ish I cant back up and I rarely say things I dont mean. So why is it that all I hear are buts? I am not impressed by the blasphemy you like to spew out of ur piehole. If you say you are gonna do something do it! Dont talk about it be about it! Do you like to hear urself talk or something? I mean really....

What happened to the days when a man's word was his bond?!?!?!

Smoochez n Duecez

• 
• 
• 
• 
• 

Last night, I was so tired that I barely made it home. I think I actually fell asleep at the wheel a couple of times but W/E.. So I get home, strip off all my clothes and dive right into my bed. AHHHH! I find the perfect spot and position to lay in, all the tension in my body releases and Im ready to drift off into LaLaLand when all of a sudden "DING". WHO IS AT THE FLIPPIN DOOR!?!? So I answer it thinking its my mom who frequently leaves her keys, but it turns out to be my cousin. Dang I shoulda looked out the peep hole.

This fool just walks right on in. Excuse the hell outta me. So he goes into my bedroom and gets on my laptop, logs onto facebook and does some other crap. Then he asks can he use my phone. So Im like cool, maybe he will use the phone and then leave. This fool calls some girl in ATL and as soon as she picks up they start yelling and cussin each other out. WTF...

They going back and forth, from what i can gather from where Im listening is that she mad he dont call her. She calls his house lookin for him and no one answers. He uses the excuse that he dont answer numbers from out of area because they are normally bill collectors (which is true. flippin bill collectors stop callin my momma house!!!) They are going at it for about 20 min. They are threatening to knock each other out, at which point I am starting to get annoyed. But the icing on the cake was when they finally calmed it down enough to be able to talk civilized to one another and he says "So what are you gonna do to keep me in your life??" EXCUSE THE HELL OUTTA ME

First of all, who the hell do you think you are talkin to like that in the first place? No "MAN" (lemme change that because these little boys our here think they "men" and cant take care of a pet rock), no male will EVER talk down to me, threaten me, or belittle me in such a way. If it happened once, it damn sure would not be happening again. But not just that, the fact that my cousin actually thinks that some girl would want to "keep him in her life" is astonishing. He has absolutely nothing to offer her and clearly has no respect for women, well its clear he has none for her.

When they got off the phone, I asked him why does he even talk to her if thats the way they interact. What he told me didnt surprise me, it disgusted me and made me embarrassed to be related to him. I told him that as a female, I was offended by the way he treated that girl and if thats how he wants to treat his friends then do it not in my presence or using my phone. Then i asked him to leave so I could finally go to sleep.

Im sorry but to the girl in ATL gettin played like a fool. YOU R DUMB! My cousin has a girlfriend here that he is supposedly "faithful" to. He was just using you for ur money and now that you dont have any, he doesnt call anymore. Stop callin, stop textin him, sendin him messages on facebook, myspace, what have you and get on with your life. The fact that you even want to continue dealing with him is DUMB. Its clear you dont have high standards set for yourself as you think you need to be with someone who treats you so poorly. Get yourself together. You are a contributing factor to the reason why dudes today think they can do want they want, say what they want and women will just take it. People will treat the way you allow them to treat you. They way you allow dudes to treat you now sets the tone for how you will let men treat you in the future. Have more RESPECT for yourself and DEMAND more for yourself. Dont think that you have to settle for anything less than what you deserve. Yea you may lose a few that you like along the way. Just remember what one wont do another one will.

HMPH... I wish a N***A would...

• 
• 
• 
• 
• 

Ugh... Cramps, bloating, fatigue, irritableness. Eve has come to visit me once again. I thought I told her not to come back after her last visit but she is just so hard headed. Its something about being on ur period that makes you more aware of your body than normal. I know the difference between a period cramp and a bm cramp. Experiencing them both and once is immeasurable pain. Thankfully Eve traveled lightly and left the cramp pain to a minimum.

But having to be at work right now, makes me sick. Like why aren't cramps an automatic get out of work with pay card?? So now on top of mild cramps, bloated stomach and eyes that will barely stay open to begin with, I have to sit in my cubicle bored all day long. I mean when I say I have nothing to do, I am being literal.

Then on top of that I have to force feed myself this nasty plaza food. I am soo tired of it, that if i have to eat it another day I am going to gag. But in order to treat my cramps I must have something on my stomach (a lesson my mother has drilled into me, because of the "unknown damage takin meds on an empty stomach will do to me in the long run.") So after weighing my minuscule options, I decide on AuBon Pain. I go downstairs and order my food, a make my own chicken with feta cheese on a soft roll.. yumm!

I come back to my little cubicle and take a bit of my sandwich... I chew and all I feel in my mouth in a soft very chewy gunk. I immediately spit it out.. CHICKEN FAT!!!! WTF?!?! I cant even get a lousy sandwich in this place. They wanna feed me chicken fat. So I take the top half of the roll and eat it, and wash it down with a bottle Mt Dew and a Midol. Now my stomach is growling because Im hungry. But I refuse to spend any of my hard earned money sitting around doing nothing here.

When I get off I am supposed to be going to my grandmothers house. Not my mother's mother(the one I like), my father's mother (the one who could irritate an angel). I wish I never would have agreed to this blasphemy. But I might as well get her off my list now so I wont have to worry about her until next month by which I will be back in school and away from the madness. 2 more hrs and I'm out of here.

• 
• 
• 
• 
• 

Ok. I know Im not Keisha from down the block. I have always have an extensive vocabulary and articulated myself eloquently. I cant dance to save my life and I dont have a fat butt. I've always lived in pretty ok neighborhoods (nowhere is perfect), and yes I go to a PWS (predominantly white school). But since when do those things define being "black"?

Why is that a person is outkasted by their own culture/society for nonconformity? I thought being different was a positive thing. Do we want to be carbon copies of one another?

Stereotypes can go all ways, we are all victim to some type of stereotype. If your a woman then automatically you are associated with motherhood, breasts, pink, bad driving. If you are a man: rough, tough, sports, cars etc. If you are black: soul food, ghetto, all day churches, tardiness, fried chicken, thugish men, teen mothers. Chinese: smart in math/science/engineering, little, improper english, nail salon or beauty supply store. The lists go on and on.

At the same token we all perpetuate these stereotypes by confiding ourselves within in. "Oh I wont go back soccer because Im black and black ppl dont play soccer, they play football." or "Girls dont play them drums" W/E. We believe these dumb things to be true and hold ourselves back from a world of opportunities.

I choose to go to a PWS because I wanted to experience a culture I wasnt familiar with. I have gone to school with Black children all my life and I wanted a change. It doesnt make me a sellout, or a wanna be white girl or anything else ignorant someone may what to say. I am who I am and Im not gonna limit myself because me stepping out the box makes somebody else uncomfortable or intimidates them. Now Im not saying that I think I am better that a Black person who went to an HBCU or one that didnt go to college at all. I just chose what I thought was best for me and to each their own.

To the young black person who is afraid to stray from the norms of "black" culture: Be yourself. Be true to who you are. When its all said and done the people you tryna be 'black' dont care about themselves let alone you. If they cant accept you for you then you dont need them. Tell them to KICK ROCKS!

To the stereotypical fool, who needs to get a life:
Both of my parents are African American/Black. There is a very minute percentage of other races on either side of my family line. So with that said, when I check the little boxes on my SAT forms or any other questionnaire, there is no doubt in my mind of whether or not its true.

• 
• 
• 
• 
• 

If its one thing I hate, it pressed dudes. I mean that is the ultimate turn off for me. If we just met a day or so ago you shouldnt be actin like we have known each other forever. I just started really givin my number out to dudes. Im pretty reserved and for the most part when dudes ask for my number I tell them no. But I decided to try things a new way.

I just discovered there was a bank a couple blocks from my job. So I decided to walk there. It was inside of a federal building so I had to check in. The security just starts rappin me up. He continues to rap me up for about 20 min. Whole time I'm thinkin: Umm I need to go to the bank DUH!. So then he finally gets to his point and asks for my "credentials." (Yea, I kno WTF)

So Im like I will give it to you when I get back and he is all like i might not be here and all this other crap. So I think to myself what the heck and give him my number. DUDE calls me the next day in the middle of the day. HELLO I HAVE JOB! Then he calls me on his way home from work and raps me up. Then he asks me where Im going and what Im doin that night. I say im going to Walmart with my Grandma. He replies, I could stop thru there.. NOOOO! I didnt invite you.

My mom thinks im being mean so I just brush it to the side. The next day he calls me at 10am. How do you kno if I get up that early??? He asks what I'm doin that day and says he could come over to my house right since its just right down the street. BOY it is 10am. IDK what Im doin but I kno I dont wanna spend it with your pressed butt. And since when is 30min right down the street?? ITS NOT! I mean clearly he could not have thought that we were gonna be kickin it right off the back. Can we talk on the phonw for a while before I let you know where I live?? I mean dang.

Then I met this other guy at the 7-11 (on another slurpee run). As soon as I pull up in the parking lot I see him eyeing me. OH GOSH. I prepare myself to be talked to. So I get my slurpee, walk over to the register and stand in line to pay. Im thinkin Im home free because he is still just lookin at me and hasnt said anything yet. As soon as I to my car door he comes over and starts his "game." He raps and raps and raps. Finally I tell him I have to go but he wont let me leave until I take his number. So I do. And then he wont let me leave until I send him a text so he can have my joint. I did it so he could get out of my face. But since then he has been texting everyday asking me to meet him and lets go out and lets go get sum ice cream. Clearly if I havent accepted any of ur invites thus far, the likely hood of me doin so now is slim.

Why cant dudes relax and let things flow naturally?? I mean why push yourself on someone who doesnt really want you. If they are interested you will kno. But if they not givin you the time of day dont keep forcing yourself on them. Its gonna make them push you away more. Please dont be pressed. Chill lay lay.. dont blow my DAY!!!

• 
• 
• 
• 
• 

Relationships... lol. They are like rollercoasters. {Fun, exciting and full of ups and downs}. We all go through certain stages in our relationships. But it is important not to stay in one stage forever. Some stages are better than others and some aren't healthy at all.


Hey Boo (Initial Attraction Stage): Okay so you meet this guy (or girl). You think they're cute, they think you're cute. Cool.... Ya'll start talking on the phone. Great conversation. Ya'll go out a few times. Enjoy each others company. Everything is going great. This is possibly the best part in any relationship. Things are new, fresh and exciting.

Who Likes Who (Restless Stage): So ya'll have been talking for a while now and things are going good. Then the questions start to arise. Do I like them too much? Do they like me the way I like them? Its a very uncomfortable place to be. Some people know exactly what they want. Others not so much. Confusion and indecisiveness will dull things down quite a bit. You don't know the parameters of the relationship and nobody wants to be the one who gets their feelings hurt. Mixed signals may send you packing or exploring other options. But you may decide to wait it out and see how things go.

I Think I Love You (Obsession Stage): So ya'll made it through the who likes who stage. Ya'll decided that ya'll both like each other alot and want to pursue a real relationship (with official titles and all). The day comes when they finally say those 3 words. Those 3 words that seem to change everything. I LOVE YOU. Now I know you may think, declaring your love for someone is a good thing. But it can also be bad. Everyone expresses their LOVE differently. Now you find your significant other acting out a bit. They start looking through your phone to see who you been callin, sittin outside your house waiting for you to come home, or just mysteriously popping up at all the locations you said you were gonna be. And the thing is they feel justified in all that they do because they LOVE you.

Back Off Loony (Breaking Up): A crazed I think I Love You stage, will often times lead to a break up. You've had it with the craziness and tell that psycho to pack their bags. This is both a good and a bad thing. It's good that you have identified that the person was crazy before you married them and had little psycho children. Bad because your obsessed lover cannot take the hint. You breaking you with them leads to another round of craziness; this time a little more extreme. They still do all the regular crazy things like call you all day and fill up your voicemail with messages, but now they are hiding in the bushes outside you house tryna see who you're bringing home. So you go get a restraining order thinking the only way to handle this is with the help of the law. WRONG! Your psycho laughs at that restraining order still continuing their never ending quest to get you back.

I know this was long. But real talk you have got to know that stuff like this happens all the time. Its just the cycle of hell we call RELATIONSHIPS!

• 
• 
• 
• 
•